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Lots of people have suggested me and @nigelt21 go abroad this holiday however the thought of being so far from Oakley just didn’t sit well with me and made me mega anxious (some people didn’t quite understand this but it is what it is!) but some of our friends stepped up and booked a staycation in Poole :) it’s the area where me and nigel met and lived for a while, it was the area I went on both my hen dos, it’s like our 2nd home and has so many special memories! This group of lovelies has been so incredible to us and I got caught smiling quite a bit on camera :) Bring on more adventures. #family #griefjourney #grief #findingmysmile #friendsandfamily #poole #staycation #beachtrip

Lots of people have suggested me and @nigelt21 go abroad this holiday however the thought of being so far from Oakley just didn’t sit well with me and made me mega anxious (some people didn’t quite understand this but it is what it is!) but some of our friends stepped up and booked a staycation in Poole :) it’s the area where me and nigel met and lived for a while, it was the area I went on both my hen dos, it’s like our 2nd home and has so many special memories! This group of lovelies has been so incredible to us and I got caught smiling quite a bit on camera :) Bring on more adventures. #family #griefjourney #grief #findingmysmile #friendsandfamily #poole #staycation #beachtrip

#grief #vulnerability #trust #selfcare #selflove #risk #healing #connection #loveyourself #wisdom #quotes #awakening #awareness #faith #anxiety #depression #mentalhealth

#grief #vulnerability #trust #selfcare #selflove #risk #healing #connection #loveyourself #wisdom #quotes #awakening #awareness #faith #anxiety #depression #mentalhealth

Within the spiral of healing, we will be asked to revision core beliefs about ourselves, others, and the world. To become a poet, painter, and sculptor of new life. 
So many of our limited beliefs arose from an environment of empathic failure, where the brilliance of a little heart was unable to be held, where the majesty of the emotional landscape was unable to be recognized and mirrored back… seeding pathways of unworthiness and shame. 
Even if we did not experience overt neglect or abuse, an environment of consistent misattunement accretes in the psyche over time, where even subtle traumatic organization can take root and flower.

Yes, these narratives and feeling states have their origin in the past. But they must be maintained in the present to stay alive. This is a liberating discovery as while we cannot change the past, we can reorganize perception in the here and now.

This is not easy, and requires the capacity to tolerate, contain, and integrate the underlying anxiety that these beliefs, feelings, and behaviors helped to keep us out of.

Though we may genuinely wish to transform our experience, we simultaneously remain invested in certain ways of thinking and feeling, in order to maintain the protective function they have served. As painful as this is, it has adaptively kept us away psychic experience that threatened to take us down. 
We must discover to what degree we still require this protection, or whether it is no longer serving our deeper longing to feel alive, connected, intimate, and free. To what degree it is keeping us out of life, out of full embodied participation in the magnificence of the human form.

We can’t just tear the old organization down in one great enlightenment experience, think our way out of it, or “manifest” it away in five quick steps. It happens slowly, by way of the activity of love.

As always, just what this “love” is cannot be revealed to you by another, but only by way of a secret language that has been placed inside you, awaiting your discovery. It is by way of attunement to this whisper that the poetry of new life will flow. 
Art by alto2

Within the spiral of healing, we will be asked to revision core beliefs about ourselves, others, and the world. To become a poet, painter, and sculptor of new life. So many of our limited beliefs arose from an environment of empathic failure, where the brilliance of a little heart was unable to be held, where the majesty of the emotional landscape was unable to be recognized and mirrored back… seeding pathways of unworthiness and shame. Even if we did not experience overt neglect or abuse, an environment of consistent misattunement accretes in the psyche over time, where even subtle traumatic organization can take root and flower. Yes, these narratives and feeling states have their origin in the past. But they must be maintained in the present to stay alive. This is a liberating discovery as while we cannot change the past, we can reorganize perception in the here and now. This is not easy, and requires the capacity to tolerate, contain, and integrate the underlying anxiety that these beliefs, feelings, and behaviors helped to keep us out of. Though we may genuinely wish to transform our experience, we simultaneously remain invested in certain ways of thinking and feeling, in order to maintain the protective function they have served. As painful as this is, it has adaptively kept us away psychic experience that threatened to take us down. We must discover to what degree we still require this protection, or whether it is no longer serving our deeper longing to feel alive, connected, intimate, and free. To what degree it is keeping us out of life, out of full embodied participation in the magnificence of the human form. We can’t just tear the old organization down in one great enlightenment experience, think our way out of it, or “manifest” it away in five quick steps. It happens slowly, by way of the activity of love. As always, just what this “love” is cannot be revealed to you by another, but only by way of a secret language that has been placed inside you, awaiting your discovery. It is by way of attunement to this whisper that the poetry of new life will flow. Art by alto2

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Who believes in the power of spirit? 🙌🏼 Spirit’s existence reminds us that our loved ones are always around. They want us to believe. 
They want us to connect with them. 
#believe #connection #lifeafterlife #spirit #energyhealing #canadianmedium #psychicmedium #grief #griefsupport #heaven #angels #missingyou #lovedones

Who believes in the power of spirit? 🙌🏼 Spirit’s existence reminds us that our loved ones are always around. They want us to believe. They want us to connect with them. #believe #connection #lifeafterlife #spirit #energyhealing #canadianmedium #psychicmedium #grief #griefsupport #heaven #angels #missingyou #lovedones

After making a custom bracelet for Dawn @leashyourfitness we loved the charms she wanted us to incorporate and have decided to provide them as an option. Jack, we all miss you, send your mom a little something today, something beautiful, she will know it is from you. #cremationashjewelry #inspirememorials #sisubeads #madebyginaatinspirememorials #inbend #missyou #cremationashbeads #cremationash #memorialbeads #meow #grief #griefsupport #petlosssupport #petlosshurts #petlossgifts #holdhonorlove

After making a custom bracelet for Dawn @leashyourfitness we loved the charms she wanted us to incorporate and have decided to provide them as an option. Jack, we all miss you, send your mom a little something today, something beautiful, she will know it is from you. #cremationashjewelry #inspirememorials #sisubeads #madebyginaatinspirememorials #inbend #missyou #cremationashbeads #cremationash #memorialbeads #meow #grief #griefsupport #petlosssupport #petlosshurts #petlossgifts #holdhonorlove

DAY 21 ~ A MESSAGE FROM MY GRIEF ✨ The hermit✨ this card is always an invitation to look within and I don’t mean hide from the world. Really truly look deep and unblock and repair and self-care. Time to get to the scary dark cave and hang with my grief, look at it and integrate it... I’m seeing this as an invite to hang out... Not sure I’m so eager to do so but ‘the cave you fear to enter holds the treasures you seek’ right #josephcampbell and #bakarawintner ?! 🤓
#dragonstone #tarotforwhatis #tarotchallenge #thehermit #darkdaystarot #woodenfloors #dailypull #cardoftheday🔮 #grief

DAY 21 ~ A MESSAGE FROM MY GRIEF ✨ The hermit✨ this card is always an invitation to look within and I don’t mean hide from the world. Really truly look deep and unblock and repair and self-care. Time to get to the scary dark cave and hang with my grief, look at it and integrate it... I’m seeing this as an invite to hang out... Not sure I’m so eager to do so but ‘the cave you fear to enter holds the treasures you seek’ right #josephcampbell and #bakarawintner ?! 🤓 #dragonstone #tarotforwhatis #tarotchallenge #thehermit #darkdaystarot #woodenfloors #dailypull #cardoftheday🔮 #grief

The Benedict Family is grieving, but they are also taking action.

The day after his passing, they started Matthew Benedict’s One Last Goal, a non-profit whose goal is to help raise mental health awareness, to educate people on mental health, and give others a place to turn. One Last Goal is an endowment through the Community Foundation for Greater Buffalo, and the money they raise will go towards helping students and athletes struggling the same way Matthew did, through outreach, education and awareness.

Tell everyone you love them every single day and treat those you don’t know with the same love. It goes a long way and you never know what another may be dealing with. It goes a long way and I realize I now must dedicate my life to making the world a better place which I did so poorly a job of for some time.” https://goodmenproject.com/ethics-values/matthew-benedicts-one-last-goal-mkdn/

The Benedict Family is grieving, but they are also taking action. The day after his passing, they started Matthew Benedict’s One Last Goal, a non-profit whose goal is to help raise mental health awareness, to educate people on mental health, and give others a place to turn. One Last Goal is an endowment through the Community Foundation for Greater Buffalo, and the money they raise will go towards helping students and athletes struggling the same way Matthew did, through outreach, education and awareness. Tell everyone you love them every single day and treat those you don’t know with the same love. It goes a long way and you never know what another may be dealing with. It goes a long way and I realize I now must dedicate my life to making the world a better place which I did so poorly a job of for some time.” https://goodmenproject.com/ethics-values/matthew-benedicts-one-last-goal-mkdn/

Today I’m talking about the third grief myth, Grieve Alone.
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As with the other myths, this, too, often has its roots in our early learning. Many of us as children were told “If you’re going to cry, do it in your room!”
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Again, we see the Foundation Myth, Don’t Feel Bad (At Least Not Around Me), at play.
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Later on, a cultural emphasis on gain makes sharing loss all the more fraught. We learn to withdraw, either literally, or emotionally, from those around us in order to protect our image or social standing. .
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Whether we are receiving good or bad news, our natural impulse is the same: we want to confide in someone we trust. Isolating in response to bad news is not natural, it is a learned behavior. A very dangerous one at that. In fact, I’d say of all the myths, this is the MOST dangerous one to buy into. .
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On the flip side, because we’ve been told to Grieve Alone, we often isolate others by denying or ignoring the loss that is at the forefront of their lives. As a counselor, I often hear “When I lost them, I lost all my friends as well.” Sometimes, the most unnecessarily painful part of a loss is not the loss itself, but the fallout. .
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The antidote to isolation is participation. We can start be having small talks with important people in our lives about re-evaluating the guidelines we use the share with one another. We can make it safe to share sad and painful experiences.
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If you’re at a point where you truly feel like you don’t have safe people to confide in, it’s long past time to get professional help. Isolation tends to compound itself because it shuts off internal and external mechanisms for building the very trust and safety we crave.
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One final thought: Not grieving alone doesn’t mean we can’t take unplug and take time to ourselves. It simply means we don’t allow a loss to make us feel less-than.
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For more on my approach to loss and grief with individuals and couples, click the #linkinbio or visit www.austinintimacysolutions.com.
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Yours,
Hayden

Today I’m talking about the third grief myth, Grieve Alone. . . As with the other myths, this, too, often has its roots in our early learning. Many of us as children were told “If you’re going to cry, do it in your room!” . . Again, we see the Foundation Myth, Don’t Feel Bad (At Least Not Around Me), at play. . . Later on, a cultural emphasis on gain makes sharing loss all the more fraught. We learn to withdraw, either literally, or emotionally, from those around us in order to protect our image or social standing. . . Whether we are receiving good or bad news, our natural impulse is the same: we want to confide in someone we trust. Isolating in response to bad news is not natural, it is a learned behavior. A very dangerous one at that. In fact, I’d say of all the myths, this is the MOST dangerous one to buy into. . . On the flip side, because we’ve been told to Grieve Alone, we often isolate others by denying or ignoring the loss that is at the forefront of their lives. As a counselor, I often hear “When I lost them, I lost all my friends as well.” Sometimes, the most unnecessarily painful part of a loss is not the loss itself, but the fallout. . . The antidote to isolation is participation. We can start be having small talks with important people in our lives about re-evaluating the guidelines we use the share with one another. We can make it safe to share sad and painful experiences. . . If you’re at a point where you truly feel like you don’t have safe people to confide in, it’s long past time to get professional help. Isolation tends to compound itself because it shuts off internal and external mechanisms for building the very trust and safety we crave. . . One final thought: Not grieving alone doesn’t mean we can’t take unplug and take time to ourselves. It simply means we don’t allow a loss to make us feel less-than. . . For more on my approach to loss and grief with individuals and couples, click the #linkinbio or visit www.austinintimacysolutions.com. . . . . . Yours, Hayden

"When someone stabs you, it's not your fault you feel pain." Inspector Gamache in A Fatal Grace by Louise Penny.
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When my bum got cancer I was convinced it was my fault.
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Even if it wasn’t the fault of my genes then it must have been because I often forget to wash my fruit and veg properly and I always eat the entire apple - yes, the WHOLE thing!🍏
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But it wasn’t my fault.
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And the fact your boss is a jerk, your parents are getting more demanding in their old age, your 11 year old is still in pull ups at night, you can’t get pregnant, you’re still single as you teeter towards 40, or you too are struggling with a diagnosis that’s scares the life out of you, it’s not your fault.
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IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT!
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Let’s not beat ourselves up further by adding blame and shame to what we’re already carrying. Life's hard enough.
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What do you need to stop blaming yourself for today? Can you ❤️ yourself well and say IT'S NOT MY FAULT!!
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#thebreatheagainbook #thrivedontjustsurvive #cancerthriver #ldhtbpftbf #peaceinthestorm #imbreathingagain #chronicpain #amputee #writersofinstagram #surivivor #cancersucks #grief #braintumor #epilepsy ##Hope #hopeful #hopeless

"When someone stabs you, it's not your fault you feel pain." Inspector Gamache in A Fatal Grace by Louise Penny. ▫️ When my bum got cancer I was convinced it was my fault. ▫️ Even if it wasn’t the fault of my genes then it must have been because I often forget to wash my fruit and veg properly and I always eat the entire apple - yes, the WHOLE thing!🍏 ▫️ But it wasn’t my fault. ▫️ And the fact your boss is a jerk, your parents are getting more demanding in their old age, your 11 year old is still in pull ups at night, you can’t get pregnant, you’re still single as you teeter towards 40, or you too are struggling with a diagnosis that’s scares the life out of you, it’s not your fault. ▫️ IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT! ▫️ Let’s not beat ourselves up further by adding blame and shame to what we’re already carrying. Life's hard enough. ▫️ What do you need to stop blaming yourself for today? Can you ❤️ yourself well and say IT'S NOT MY FAULT!! : : #thebreatheagainbook #thrivedontjustsurvive #cancerthriver #ldhtbpftbf #peaceinthestorm #imbreathingagain #chronicpain #amputee #writersofinstagram #surivivor #cancersucks #grief #braintumor #epilepsy ##Hope #hopeful #hopeless

A photo recreation and commemoration.
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The most recent post to the blog is called “Traveling Through Grief” and I share some tidbits from my experience “navigating what it means to explore a world that is missing the person that once inspired the way.” It’s taken some time and a hell of a a lot of digging to put this theme into words and I’m grateful for the lights in my life that helped me get there, knowingly and unknowingly.
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#travellightexperienceheavy #travelblog #blogger #paris #loss #grief #explore #sheexplores #girlswhotravel #commemoration #earthlove #mom #threegoodthingsproject #goodvibes #motherdaughter #yogapractice

A photo recreation and commemoration. — The most recent post to the blog is called “Traveling Through Grief” and I share some tidbits from my experience “navigating what it means to explore a world that is missing the person that once inspired the way.” It’s taken some time and a hell of a a lot of digging to put this theme into words and I’m grateful for the lights in my life that helped me get there, knowingly and unknowingly. — #travellightexperienceheavy #travelblog #blogger #paris #loss #grief #explore #sheexplores #girlswhotravel #commemoration #earthlove #mom #threegoodthingsproject #goodvibes #motherdaughter #yogapractice

Amazing how many people abandon you in your darkest hour, those you least expect.  But others who were only casual friends and  rise up and hold you tight as they shine on you. So many things about grief have surprised me, not least finding out who is truly here for me.
#grief#widow

Amazing how many people abandon you in your darkest hour, those you least expect. But others who were only casual friends and rise up and hold you tight as they shine on you. So many things about grief have surprised me, not least finding out who is truly here for me. #grief#widow

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💥💥NEW MUSIC ALERT💥💥⁣ ⁣ If you’ve ever lost a loved one, this is your song...⁣ ⁣ 💥💥Releasing 9.13.19💥💥⁣ ⁣ #grief #loss #griefsupport #love #griefjourney #grieving #healing #griefandloss #depression #death #bereavement #hope #anxiety #mentalhealth #griefawareness #family #funeralservice #support #therapy #mourning #sad

You were silver and gold and Christmas. A soft landing. A home with strong bones. Now the sky is heavy and falling without your light. Now I know you built some strength in me. Now I need you more than ever. I wish I had something from you to hold onto, but all you ever gave me was love and pasta and pride and that was always enough. Now I am crumbling and gutted and grateful for it. Now I know how much I love you. 
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You were silver and gold and Christmas. A soft landing. A home with strong bones. Now the sky is heavy and falling without your light. Now I know you built some strength in me. Now I need you more than ever. I wish I had something from you to hold onto, but all you ever gave me was love and pasta and pride and that was always enough. Now I am crumbling and gutted and grateful for it. Now I know how much I love you. #poem #poetry #spilledink #creativewriting #writersoninstagram #poetsofinstagram #words #quotes #poetryisnotdead #typewriter #poetsofig #instapoetry #writerstag #writers_creed #momnpopspoetrystop #evepoetrygroup #grief

I feel your shadow mixing with mine. I look at the pavement and see our entwined fingers. 
I feel you on my skin. Smell you all over me. You’re a kind of poison. Every hit of you leaves me dizzy. Every hit. All the ecstasy of you. All your misery, clouding my head. 
#poison #memory #lettinggo #grief #newness #dark #shadows #done #walkaway #goodbye

I feel your shadow mixing with mine. I look at the pavement and see our entwined fingers. I feel you on my skin. Smell you all over me. You’re a kind of poison. Every hit of you leaves me dizzy. Every hit. All the ecstasy of you. All your misery, clouding my head. #poison #memory #lettinggo #grief #newness #dark #shadows #done #walkaway #goodbye

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Twin-twin transfusion syndrome (TTTS) is a rare, serious condition that can occur in pregnancies when identical twins share a placenta. Abnormal blood vessel connections form in the placenta and allow blood to flow unevenly between the babies. TTTS is a disease of the placenta, not the babies themselves, and affects each twin differently. The donor twin, who is becoming dehydrated, does not produce as much urine as it should, resulting in a low amount of amniotic fluid and poor fetal growth. The recipient twin, whose system is overwhelmed by too much fluid, produces more urine than usual. This eventually leads to an enlarged bladder and excess amniotic fluid. The excess fluid can put a strain on the recipient twin’s heart, sometimes leading to heart failure. Without treatment, this condition can be fatal for both twins. - Cincinnati Fetal Center. Grayson was our donor baby (he was 39% smaller at delivery 12.2 oz) and Jackson (1 lb. 1 oz) was our recipient. The increased amniotic fluid caused me to have an incompetent cervix. I had dilated 2 cm due to increased fluid. We tried an emergency cerclage around 18 weeks. It held, but I began to funnel above it. My sweet boys were born alive at #21w4d. We were scheduled to have a laser surgery to attempt to correct the blood blow, two days after the boys arrived. I often blame myself that I should have fought for the surgery to be done sooner. But, we were told even with the surgery there was a 80% one would survive and 60% that both would. No part of our TTTS journey was easy. There was suspicion of it starting at 12 weeks, after Jackson had a high NT. It’s hard seeing twins. I wonder why we weren’t fortunate enough to be blessed with ours here on earth? I wonder how we were so lucky to have spontaneous identical twins? But, we were unlucky enough for the placenta to be diseased and for us to lose our boys. I never knew such a terrible disease existed. I’m really missing them. #graysongregory #jacksonfinn #march272019 #ttts

Twin-twin transfusion syndrome (TTTS) is a rare, serious condition that can occur in pregnancies when identical twins share a placenta. Abnormal blood vessel connections form in the placenta and allow blood to flow unevenly between the babies. TTTS is a disease of the placenta, not the babies themselves, and affects each twin differently. The donor twin, who is becoming dehydrated, does not produce as much urine as it should, resulting in a low amount of amniotic fluid and poor fetal growth. The recipient twin, whose system is overwhelmed by too much fluid, produces more urine than usual. This eventually leads to an enlarged bladder and excess amniotic fluid. The excess fluid can put a strain on the recipient twin’s heart, sometimes leading to heart failure. Without treatment, this condition can be fatal for both twins. - Cincinnati Fetal Center. Grayson was our donor baby (he was 39% smaller at delivery 12.2 oz) and Jackson (1 lb. 1 oz) was our recipient. The increased amniotic fluid caused me to have an incompetent cervix. I had dilated 2 cm due to increased fluid. We tried an emergency cerclage around 18 weeks. It held, but I began to funnel above it. My sweet boys were born alive at #21w4d. We were scheduled to have a laser surgery to attempt to correct the blood blow, two days after the boys arrived. I often blame myself that I should have fought for the surgery to be done sooner. But, we were told even with the surgery there was a 80% one would survive and 60% that both would. No part of our TTTS journey was easy. There was suspicion of it starting at 12 weeks, after Jackson had a high NT. It’s hard seeing twins. I wonder why we weren’t fortunate enough to be blessed with ours here on earth? I wonder how we were so lucky to have spontaneous identical twins? But, we were unlucky enough for the placenta to be diseased and for us to lose our boys. I never knew such a terrible disease existed. I’m really missing them. #graysongregory #jacksonfinn #march272019 #ttts

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Losing a sibling was like having part of my history erased. Like part of what made me, ME, taken away. Sibling loss is a largely a forgotten topic. 
I love my brother. I miss my brother. I will never be the same with him gone💓

#brotherandsister #siblingloss #siblinglossawareness #siblinglosssupport #ilovemybrother #littlebrother #gonetoosoon 
#siblinggrief #grief #loss

Losing a sibling was like having part of my history erased. Like part of what made me, ME, taken away. Sibling loss is a largely a forgotten topic. I love my brother. I miss my brother. I will never be the same with him gone💓 #brotherandsister #siblingloss #siblinglossawareness #siblinglosssupport #ilovemybrother #littlebrother #gonetoosoon #siblinggrief #grief #loss

LOOKING AFTER YOUR MENTAL HEALTH THROUGH CHRONIC PAIN (Image by @frizzkidart)

Today I'm really struggling with my mental health. I've had a really really rough week with a horrendous pain flare and the year anniversary of one of my best friends passing. I finally woke up out the flare yesterday and was really hopeful to make it into the office today to try and see people and get a bit of my 'normal' life back. But then I woke up today with a migraine so bad it made me sick. So i've spent another day in bed, alone, with no sound and an eye mask on. And today it all just got the better of me and I've spent most of the day crying (which I should point out isn't a good mix with a migraine). However I'm trying really hard to remember that; it's just been an extra terrible week, to give myself a break, to try and stop feeling guilty for needing so much time to rest and to try and stop feeling like I'm letting everyone down constantly. And that even though I'm feeling depressed, I'm grieving and I'm needing so much time to rest - the people around me still appreciate that I'm here and love me. 
I wasn't sure I wanted to share this today because it felt so negative but the point of me sharing my journey is to help others feel less alone. So if you're also feeling sad today for any reason at all, I see you and I'm standing with you.
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LOOKING AFTER YOUR MENTAL HEALTH THROUGH CHRONIC PAIN (Image by @frizzkidart) Today I'm really struggling with my mental health. I've had a really really rough week with a horrendous pain flare and the year anniversary of one of my best friends passing. I finally woke up out the flare yesterday and was really hopeful to make it into the office today to try and see people and get a bit of my 'normal' life back. But then I woke up today with a migraine so bad it made me sick. So i've spent another day in bed, alone, with no sound and an eye mask on. And today it all just got the better of me and I've spent most of the day crying (which I should point out isn't a good mix with a migraine). However I'm trying really hard to remember that; it's just been an extra terrible week, to give myself a break, to try and stop feeling guilty for needing so much time to rest and to try and stop feeling like I'm letting everyone down constantly. And that even though I'm feeling depressed, I'm grieving and I'm needing so much time to rest - the people around me still appreciate that I'm here and love me. I wasn't sure I wanted to share this today because it felt so negative but the point of me sharing my journey is to help others feel less alone. So if you're also feeling sad today for any reason at all, I see you and I'm standing with you. . . . [Image description: first image is a drawing of the world on a purply background with the words 'you make this world a better place, even when you're grieving, depressed, resting'. Second image of a box of 'sumatriptan' medication] #chronicillness #migraine #chronicpain #invisibleillness #invisibledisability #MECFS #Fibromyalgia #meawareness #fibromyalgiaawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillhealth #grief #spoonie #pain #mobilityaid #youngandsick #youdontlooksick #medication #sickgirlsclub

[day 21] ~ anatomy of the dark -----------------------------------
my poem for today's #rainasmprompts - "anatomy of.." I had a few different titles for this one (anotomy of my brain/heart/fear) but I feel like "the dark" encompasses everything melancholic I tried to show through this piece. it's been a bit of a struggle lately, I've not been sleeping well etc and in turn its making me hella anxious - making me realise how the dark isn't as comforting as it once was.
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[day 21] ~ anatomy of the dark ----------------------------------- my poem for today's #rainasmprompts - "anatomy of.." I had a few different titles for this one (anotomy of my brain/heart/fear) but I feel like "the dark" encompasses everything melancholic I tried to show through this piece. it's been a bit of a struggle lately, I've not been sleeping well etc and in turn its making me hella anxious - making me realise how the dark isn't as comforting as it once was. hope u enjoyed reading ✨ . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . [image from pinterest] #joeykidney #tylerjoseph #joshdun #doddleoddle #tumblr #quotes #aesthetic #poetry #twentyonepilots #bands #grief #death #blackandwhite #poem #art #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #writing #writingcommunityofinstagram #poetryCommunity #poetry #dailypoems #feedbackforfriends #micropoetry #micropoem #communitypoetry #newcopoetry #like4like #follow4follow

Missing my dad today. I’m sad tomorrow will be my first birthday without him. 
#family #birthday #grief #loss

Missing my dad today. I’m sad tomorrow will be my first birthday without him. #family #birthday #grief #loss

Let’s talk about dreams💭❤️. .

Do you ever dream of your loved ones after they’ve passed away? I used to have a recurring dream of my mom for the first few years after her passing. I used to wake up really upset because the dream seemed so real to me😰💔. .

As time has gone on, I’ve become better at processing my grief. I don’t have that particular dream anymore but on occasion my mom still decides to make an appearance in my dreams☺️😴. And when she does I just think of it as a special sign that she was just missing me too❤️✨. .

How do you find the dreams that you have of your loved ones? How do they make you feel?.
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#BGPLife #BigGirlPantiesLife #Dreams #LosingMom #Grief #GrievingDaughter #LetsTalk #GriefRecovery #ShareYourWellness #10YearsLater #TheWaySheThrives

Let’s talk about dreams💭❤️. . Do you ever dream of your loved ones after they’ve passed away? I used to have a recurring dream of my mom for the first few years after her passing. I used to wake up really upset because the dream seemed so real to me😰💔. . As time has gone on, I’ve become better at processing my grief. I don’t have that particular dream anymore but on occasion my mom still decides to make an appearance in my dreams☺️😴. And when she does I just think of it as a special sign that she was just missing me too❤️✨. . How do you find the dreams that you have of your loved ones? How do they make you feel?. . . . . #BGPLife #BigGirlPantiesLife #Dreams #LosingMom #Grief #GrievingDaughter #LetsTalk #GriefRecovery #ShareYourWellness #10YearsLater #TheWaySheThrives

When going through the mourning and grieving process, my body has been less than willing to get a good night's sleep. Night time seems to be the time when all the thoughts of fear, confusion, regret, sadness, shoulda, woulda, couldas rear their ugly heads. That combined with the day's worth of extra congestion from crying, holding in crying, and typical allergy season from which I was already suffering, sleep rarely comes without aid. Insert Benadryl. Just regular ole over the counter generic drugstore brand Benadryl. While it does not provide a complete uninterrupted 8 hours of sleep, it does allow for me to sleep the majority of the night. Also, I wake up with less puffy eyes and always am breathing easier than when I am prepping for bed. Now I'm no medical professional so maybe this is something that is just hurting instead of just helping, but right now, today, it makes my nights decent. And right now, decent is everything.
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When going through the mourning and grieving process, my body has been less than willing to get a good night's sleep. Night time seems to be the time when all the thoughts of fear, confusion, regret, sadness, shoulda, woulda, couldas rear their ugly heads. That combined with the day's worth of extra congestion from crying, holding in crying, and typical allergy season from which I was already suffering, sleep rarely comes without aid. Insert Benadryl. Just regular ole over the counter generic drugstore brand Benadryl. While it does not provide a complete uninterrupted 8 hours of sleep, it does allow for me to sleep the majority of the night. Also, I wake up with less puffy eyes and always am breathing easier than when I am prepping for bed. Now I'm no medical professional so maybe this is something that is just hurting instead of just helping, but right now, today, it makes my nights decent. And right now, decent is everything. • • • • • #grief #grieving #mourning #benadryl #allergyrelief #sleep #lackofsleep #juststuffthathelps

So many memories, so much love ~ so few words... 💕✨ My dear ex-husband Martin Ehdin, Daniel @ehdin ’s dad passed away to early from a heart attack, age 66. Grief always hits you hard, by surprise - like a tsunami... My heart hurts, the finality is cruel. It’s the same for us all, and we can’t stop loving just because it hurts soooo much when the love is lost. We are LOVE beings, and grief is the price we pay... we were married 1996-2003, but the deep love and connection always stays. . Martin accomplished much, from headmaster of IHM, to founder of #scandinavias first #headhunting #company Ehdin & Partners, to diploma from Carl Jung Institute and author of many bestselling management books like “Myten om moroten” - to spending years as a #buddist #monk on #srilanka. ❤️❤️❤️ Love never goes away, it always lives in our hearts... #love #heart #eternal #spiritual #connection #grief is #partoflife

So many memories, so much love ~ so few words... 💕✨ My dear ex-husband Martin Ehdin, Daniel @ehdin ’s dad passed away to early from a heart attack, age 66. Grief always hits you hard, by surprise - like a tsunami... My heart hurts, the finality is cruel. It’s the same for us all, and we can’t stop loving just because it hurts soooo much when the love is lost. We are LOVE beings, and grief is the price we pay... we were married 1996-2003, but the deep love and connection always stays. . Martin accomplished much, from headmaster of IHM, to founder of #scandinavias first #headhunting #company Ehdin & Partners, to diploma from Carl Jung Institute and author of many bestselling management books like “Myten om moroten” - to spending years as a #buddist #monk on #srilanka. ❤️❤️❤️ Love never goes away, it always lives in our hearts... #love #heart #eternal #spiritual #connection #grief is #partoflife

Team Grief are spending some time in Todmorden this week. 
We are reflecting and congratulating ourselves on all that we have accomplished so far. Whilst also plotting and dreaming about the future of our quiet rebellion. 
As a team we spend a lot of time caring for others so finding some space for ourselves feels really good. 
#processart #todmorden #retreat #artist #grief

Team Grief are spending some time in Todmorden this week. We are reflecting and congratulating ourselves on all that we have accomplished so far. Whilst also plotting and dreaming about the future of our quiet rebellion. As a team we spend a lot of time caring for others so finding some space for ourselves feels really good. #processart #todmorden #retreat #artist #grief

🖤 For your bones are our bones.

Words by me.

#foryourbonesareourbones #lovequotes #love #honour #lovestory #storytelling #inlifewelove #lifequotes #life #lifedeathwhatever #loveandloss #grief #griefquotes #lifeanddeath #tapestryoflife #samethread #weweaveyouintoourstory #icarryyouwithme #ourlivesbuiltuponyourfoundations #ourstory

🖤 For your bones are our bones. Words by me. #foryourbonesareourbones #lovequotes #love #honour #lovestory #storytelling #inlifewelove #lifequotes #life #lifedeathwhatever #loveandloss #grief #griefquotes #lifeanddeath #tapestryoflife #samethread #weweaveyouintoourstory #icarryyouwithme #ourlivesbuiltuponyourfoundations #ourstory

@laurenwellbank @huffpost

@laurenwellbank @huffpost

Next up presenting work this Saturday is Kenya Hilliard-  @kenyaplie The piece “Hand Me Down”, choreographed by Kenya Hilliard, is a narrative on grief and adjusting to a new life after loss. Kenya is a recent Mills College graduate, holding her MFA in Dance. She is currently teaching preschool dance, high school color guard, Jazz, and her own development Dynamic Body Awareness which is fusion of meditation and movement. Stop by one of her classes Fridays at 7pm in Sacramento! We are thrilled to have you perform your work this Saturday at Emergence Dance Festival. Ticket link in BIO  #dance #dancer #choreographer #bayarea #berkeley #california #art #grief #movement #passion #lifeforce #artist #dancefloor #sanfrancisco #oakland

Next up presenting work this Saturday is Kenya Hilliard- @kenyaplie The piece “Hand Me Down”, choreographed by Kenya Hilliard, is a narrative on grief and adjusting to a new life after loss. Kenya is a recent Mills College graduate, holding her MFA in Dance. She is currently teaching preschool dance, high school color guard, Jazz, and her own development Dynamic Body Awareness which is fusion of meditation and movement. Stop by one of her classes Fridays at 7pm in Sacramento! We are thrilled to have you perform your work this Saturday at Emergence Dance Festival. Ticket link in BIO #dance #dancer #choreographer #bayarea #berkeley #california #art #grief #movement #passion #lifeforce #artist #dancefloor #sanfrancisco #oakland

What people don’t often realize is that healing from homelessness, domestic violence and addiction is often accompanied by grief and loss. Not only is a person losing a part of his or her previous identity, but it’s quite possible that unhealthy relationships with family and friends may be cut off as well. Even though distance from unhealthy relationships is helpful and beneficial, it is NEVER easy to walk away from the people we love. 
It’s important to give people the grace and space needed to grieve loss even in the midst of positive life changes.

#homelessness #domesticviolence #addiction #grief #loss #grace #healing

What people don’t often realize is that healing from homelessness, domestic violence and addiction is often accompanied by grief and loss. Not only is a person losing a part of his or her previous identity, but it’s quite possible that unhealthy relationships with family and friends may be cut off as well. Even though distance from unhealthy relationships is helpful and beneficial, it is NEVER easy to walk away from the people we love. It’s important to give people the grace and space needed to grieve loss even in the midst of positive life changes. #homelessness #domesticviolence #addiction #grief #loss #grace #healing

PINE DOWN: Today, I witnessed the funeral of a tree. Is 'funeral' the right way to describe it? Sure felt like it. This Pine tree, standing atleast 60ft tall (by my guesstimate) has been my focal point every morning as I sat inside, with my coffee, looking out. It probably died over the winter, from pine bark beetle damage I'm told, although it took me a few months into spring to notice that the leaves weren't turning green. I thought, nay, hoped, it was a phase of intense leaf shedding, but it never recovered and I was wrong. 
The tree removal team descended upon my backyard at 7 a.m., and within minutes, it turned from a place of tranquility to something akin to what I imagine a war zone to be. I stood helplessly, watching the tree being severed limb by limb, and the trunk sliced into chunks and lowered down. The air was thick with the unmistakable smell of gasoline and despair.

There were no bird sounds. No squirrels scuttling about. No butterflies. There was nothing but the sounds of power tools, grinding away. When that last chunk was sliced down, and all that remained was an empty stump, I felt a punch inside. 
I've never seen a tree come down; in passing, yes, but a momentary sight does not compare to the horror of watching it unfurl, from start to finish. Reading about forest fires and mass deforestation somewhere far away in the world is one thing. Standing witness to a massacre, is a whole other thing. I know that now.

This pine was a gargantuan thing, and it's been alive much, much longer than I.

Yes, it felt like a funeral today; it felt like loosing a person, because the hardest part isn't death, but what comes after the coffin is taken away; it's the gaping wound of emptiness left behind in the world for you to reckon with.

It is now my sacred duty, to revive the earth around this stump from grief, and help it grow other gargantuan things to replace the one we lost today. I guess it's a good thing, that I know all about grief and growing things.

PINE DOWN: Today, I witnessed the funeral of a tree. Is 'funeral' the right way to describe it? Sure felt like it. This Pine tree, standing atleast 60ft tall (by my guesstimate) has been my focal point every morning as I sat inside, with my coffee, looking out. It probably died over the winter, from pine bark beetle damage I'm told, although it took me a few months into spring to notice that the leaves weren't turning green. I thought, nay, hoped, it was a phase of intense leaf shedding, but it never recovered and I was wrong. The tree removal team descended upon my backyard at 7 a.m., and within minutes, it turned from a place of tranquility to something akin to what I imagine a war zone to be. I stood helplessly, watching the tree being severed limb by limb, and the trunk sliced into chunks and lowered down. The air was thick with the unmistakable smell of gasoline and despair. There were no bird sounds. No squirrels scuttling about. No butterflies. There was nothing but the sounds of power tools, grinding away. When that last chunk was sliced down, and all that remained was an empty stump, I felt a punch inside. I've never seen a tree come down; in passing, yes, but a momentary sight does not compare to the horror of watching it unfurl, from start to finish. Reading about forest fires and mass deforestation somewhere far away in the world is one thing. Standing witness to a massacre, is a whole other thing. I know that now. This pine was a gargantuan thing, and it's been alive much, much longer than I. Yes, it felt like a funeral today; it felt like loosing a person, because the hardest part isn't death, but what comes after the coffin is taken away; it's the gaping wound of emptiness left behind in the world for you to reckon with. It is now my sacred duty, to revive the earth around this stump from grief, and help it grow other gargantuan things to replace the one we lost today. I guess it's a good thing, that I know all about grief and growing things.

My #peer prompted to regenerate from the heart. I felt terror working up the food chain. My #peer suggested I draw a hawk to process the terror from telling. Sheer terror. A #doodle from #within of us healing together. #grief brings up EVERYTHING to consider, EVERY loss. High school trauma with art teachers abusing me and my sisters and others is a tough pill to retake again and again. TRIGGER WARNING. How big was your rectum when first violated? The issue isn’t guns, it isn’t mental illness, it is humanity building commerce from preying on the needs of people craving depravity that need help who exist in schools, who exist in all walks of life from the most successful business person to the engineer the golfer the nun, the pastor, the priest, the high school sports team that goes along. The trauma screws people up. If they are on the streets, what support? If you are in a care facility? A good chance you will be re-abused. Therapists and doctors, you may get sold down the river, your healing blocked. Law enforcement? If you are in a care home and have the courage to report it, your desire to prosecute may never manifest. Safety for those trafficked and are older? Non-existent. Support for families? Non-existent. Investigative agencies? Will betray the process. So what? how? I myself found myself writing to the only politician I trust and called the one last US possibility. Are they too in this massive attempt to deny and bury the depravity? Do victims of torture here in the US have to go to another country for support? Why is it that a SoCal agency will help torture survivors from other countries but not a torture survivor living in their own city? That is twisted! So don’t talk to me about the border or guns or trade - talk to me about coming clean with all the dirty laundry including selling this body for experimentation. #compassioninaction

My #peer prompted to regenerate from the heart. I felt terror working up the food chain. My #peer suggested I draw a hawk to process the terror from telling. Sheer terror. A #doodle from #within of us healing together. #grief brings up EVERYTHING to consider, EVERY loss. High school trauma with art teachers abusing me and my sisters and others is a tough pill to retake again and again. TRIGGER WARNING. How big was your rectum when first violated? The issue isn’t guns, it isn’t mental illness, it is humanity building commerce from preying on the needs of people craving depravity that need help who exist in schools, who exist in all walks of life from the most successful business person to the engineer the golfer the nun, the pastor, the priest, the high school sports team that goes along. The trauma screws people up. If they are on the streets, what support? If you are in a care facility? A good chance you will be re-abused. Therapists and doctors, you may get sold down the river, your healing blocked. Law enforcement? If you are in a care home and have the courage to report it, your desire to prosecute may never manifest. Safety for those trafficked and are older? Non-existent. Support for families? Non-existent. Investigative agencies? Will betray the process. So what? how? I myself found myself writing to the only politician I trust and called the one last US possibility. Are they too in this massive attempt to deny and bury the depravity? Do victims of torture here in the US have to go to another country for support? Why is it that a SoCal agency will help torture survivors from other countries but not a torture survivor living in their own city? That is twisted! So don’t talk to me about the border or guns or trade - talk to me about coming clean with all the dirty laundry including selling this body for experimentation. #compassioninaction

#Repost @colourful_anomaly ・・・
Grief is a comet swirling happily through the galaxy, not realizing that it will soon crash and burn.  Grief is its growing realization of the impending crash, watching it happen in slow motion and not being able to do anything about it.  Grief is the ignorance of the onlookers, entranced by the beauty of the flames but blind to the pain of the inferno. 💫🌎☄️🌟🔥
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I was tagged a couple days ago by the lovely @twisted.word.tango for the prompt, “When the comets come home,” by @starlit_poems.  I sat on it for a few days because I wasn’t in a particularly celestial mood.  When I started writing this morning, I realized it was quite a sad tale.  This is also a response to the prompt “grief as a tangible thing” by @rainingalloverthesky.  Comets are tangible-ish, right? 🤷‍♀️. It also fits with “shining night” by @devwritespoems and “fire in the sky” by @herheartpoetry. Also, thank you to @rohlerach for introducing me to the @starlit_poems page.
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#Repost @colourful_anomaly ・・・ Grief is a comet swirling happily through the galaxy, not realizing that it will soon crash and burn. Grief is its growing realization of the impending crash, watching it happen in slow motion and not being able to do anything about it. Grief is the ignorance of the onlookers, entranced by the beauty of the flames but blind to the pain of the inferno. 💫🌎☄️🌟🔥 * I was tagged a couple days ago by the lovely @twisted.word.tango for the prompt, “When the comets come home,” by @starlit_poems. I sat on it for a few days because I wasn’t in a particularly celestial mood. When I started writing this morning, I realized it was quite a sad tale. This is also a response to the prompt “grief as a tangible thing” by @rainingalloverthesky. Comets are tangible-ish, right? 🤷‍♀️. It also fits with “shining night” by @devwritespoems and “fire in the sky” by @herheartpoetry. Also, thank you to @rohlerach for introducing me to the @starlit_poems page. * Image credit to thetechnoskeptic.com. * * * #rainasmprompts #starlitpoems #herheartpoetry #devspoetryblock #colourfulanomaly #poetryisnotdead #poetrycommunity #globalpoetcult #instapoem #instapoet #spilledink #thewritersturf #poetscafe #wordporn #wordgasm #poemoftheday #poetrysociety #tastehermind #silverleafpoetry #evepoetrygroup #thepoetsanonymous #poetrynetworking #elitepoets #newpoetsspotlight #bymepoetry #poetry #poem #grief #comets

#thisissome 😳 #terrible #habit #accusing #because #extreme #trustissues #cleptos #irresponsible 😡#people #cause #me #grief #laughteristhebestmedicine

#thisissome 😳 #terrible #habit #accusing #because #extreme #trustissues #cleptos #irresponsible 😡#people #cause #me #grief #laughteristhebestmedicine

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Truth . . . #grief #thebabylossguide #griefsupport #saytheirnames #miscarriage #stillbirth #widow #losingaparent #stillborn #babyloss #childloss #pain #grief #griefjourney #tears #loss #zoeclarkcoates #fertility #infertility #sayinggoodbye #beyondgoodbye #mariposatrust #instagrief #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefquotes #quoteoftheday #grieflanguage #emptyarms #newbook

Remembering my big brother @dskylercobb on his 48th birthday and everyday. 💔💔💔 ⁣
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Remembering my big brother @dskylercobb on his 48th birthday and everyday. 💔💔💔 ⁣ ⁣ #happybirthday #happybirthdayinheaven #missingyoueveryday #siblingsforever #brothersister #grief #loss #griefandloss #tvgriefconnection #treasurevalleygriefconnection

Remembering my big brother on his 48th birthday and everyday. 💔💔💔 ⁣
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#happybirthday #happybirthdayinheaven #missingyoueveryday #siblingsforever #brothersister #grief #loss #griefandloss #tvgriefconnection #treasurevalleygriefconnection

Remembering my big brother on his 48th birthday and everyday. 💔💔💔 ⁣ ⁣ #happybirthday #happybirthdayinheaven #missingyoueveryday #siblingsforever #brothersister #grief #loss #griefandloss #tvgriefconnection #treasurevalleygriefconnection

Be aware of how your emotions affect your body. .
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Be aware of how your emotions affect your body. . . . . . . #mindfulness #mindbodyconnection #mindandbody #wellness #wisdom #connection #lettinggo #release #tranformation #empowerment #Inspiration #inspire #changeyourthinking #perception #freedom #anger #healing #grief #growth #stress #addiction

Well....Am feeling really bad for him.Just came after finishing my classes and found him dead, lying on the floor😔😔R.I.P. He was well for a couple of days...I have been observing him and came to know that he was not able to fly. I apologize as i was not able to save him⚰⚰
#saveanimals #savebirds #save #death #grief #apologize #feelingsorry #pity #wednesday #pigeon #notabletofly

Well....Am feeling really bad for him.Just came after finishing my classes and found him dead, lying on the floor😔😔R.I.P. He was well for a couple of days...I have been observing him and came to know that he was not able to fly. I apologize as i was not able to save him⚰⚰ #saveanimals #savebirds #save #death #grief #apologize #feelingsorry #pity #wednesday #pigeon #notabletofly

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We have our first official “promo” video up! Please like and SHARE!!! The pilot episode will launch next Wednesday! Help us make this a success! #addiction #bravery #copingmechanism #courage #depression #love #listen #emotions #empathy #friendship #grief #guilt #heartache #hope #mentalhealth #pain #podcast #ptsd #relate #sadness #shame #support #talk #talkshow @facebook @youtube @cristaljordan

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I lit a candle for my beautiful brother while I was at Salisbury Cathedral 💞  It's been almost 2 years and 4 months and I miss him so much 💔😢 My lovely sister in law and nephews came to visit recently, which was wonderful.  It's so comforting to spend time with Kevin's family 🤗 #salisbury #salisburycathedral #candle #lovedones ##grief #griefandloss #siblingloss #siblinggrief #lovemybrother #missmybrother #family #fire #elementsandgrief @hacienda.la.bonita @griefandgrits

I lit a candle for my beautiful brother while I was at Salisbury Cathedral 💞 It's been almost 2 years and 4 months and I miss him so much 💔😢 My lovely sister in law and nephews came to visit recently, which was wonderful. It's so comforting to spend time with Kevin's family 🤗 #salisbury #salisburycathedral #candle #lovedones ##grief #griefandloss #siblingloss #siblinggrief #lovemybrother #missmybrother #family #fire #elementsandgrief @hacienda.la.bonita @griefandgrits

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Have you come across this article on your grief journey? ( sadly on this account I can’t link things, you need 10k followers for that feature) but an easy search or if you go on my other page @feminineshift, you can find it in the archived stories under the headline, Grief.

Have you come across this article on your grief journey? ( sadly on this account I can’t link things, you need 10k followers for that feature) but an easy search or if you go on my other page @feminineshift, you can find it in the archived stories under the headline, Grief.

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Now taking name suggestions for the guy! I stuffed him for a of who’s been admitted for chemo who’s having a rough go of it. 
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Now taking name suggestions for the guy! I stuffed him for a of who’s been admitted for chemo who’s having a rough go of it. #PA #physicianassistant #pediatrics #palliativecare #pediatricpalliativecare #supportivecare #pediatricsupportivecare #womeninmedicine #APPFellowship #hospice #pediatrichospice #grief #bereavement

Recently we posted a great article about learning from the spins on the dance floor of life - can we be a better person because of them?

As I was reading the article, this thought came to me: widowhood can be like having a silent dance partner called grief. We know the partner is there but others may not see it. The partner might show up at unexpected times. He might cut in just when we least expect it. 
You can read the article at the link in our profile. #awidowsmight #widow #widowsofinstagram #dance #grief #loss #healing

Recently we posted a great article about learning from the spins on the dance floor of life - can we be a better person because of them? As I was reading the article, this thought came to me: widowhood can be like having a silent dance partner called grief. We know the partner is there but others may not see it. The partner might show up at unexpected times. He might cut in just when we least expect it. You can read the article at the link in our profile. #awidowsmight #widow #widowsofinstagram #dance #grief #loss #healing

How Do You Honor The Falling Kings & Queens Who Have Paved The Way For You? Prayer Is My #1 Honoring Go To Tool For The Best Communication With My Ancestors..My Podcast #LAD Is My #2 Weapon Of Choice To Give Thanks And Praise For All That Was Done For Me! How Do You Salute Your Angels? Let Me Know In The Comments And Don’t Forget To Head On Over To @applepodcasts @soundcloud To Listen To #LAD Today! #ClickTheLink #LifeAfterDeath #LAD #TheToniRoseFoundation #PurposeFILLEDLife #Remember #Grief #Death #GriefCounseling #GriefCast #GriefRelief #LifeAfterDeath #TheToniRoseFoundation #TragedyToTriumph #Win #CommunityService #SocialWork #Family #Unity #love

How Do You Honor The Falling Kings & Queens Who Have Paved The Way For You? Prayer Is My #1 Honoring Go To Tool For The Best Communication With My Ancestors..My Podcast #LAD Is My #2 Weapon Of Choice To Give Thanks And Praise For All That Was Done For Me! How Do You Salute Your Angels? Let Me Know In The Comments And Don’t Forget To Head On Over To @applepodcasts @soundcloud To Listen To #LAD Today! #ClickTheLink #LifeAfterDeath #LAD #TheToniRoseFoundation #PurposeFILLEDLife #Remember #Grief #Death #GriefCounseling #GriefCast #GriefRelief #LifeAfterDeath #TheToniRoseFoundation #TragedyToTriumph #Win #CommunityService #SocialWork #Family #Unity #love

**Pregnancy Loss**
Many women suffer a miscarriages every year yet we still find it difficult to talk about miscarriage. .
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It's a devastating time and can be very lonely for parents especially as the majority of the time they hadn't even told anyone they were expecting a baby. .
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It might sound cold but 'everything happens for a reason', I think that saying has helped so many to accept miscarriage and carry on.
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If you are interested in putting a stop to pregnancy loss or miscarriages send us a dm or click on the link in our bio. Thanks
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**Pregnancy Loss** Many women suffer a miscarriages every year yet we still find it difficult to talk about miscarriage. . . It's a devastating time and can be very lonely for parents especially as the majority of the time they hadn't even told anyone they were expecting a baby. . . Some have suffered six miscarriages over the last 12 years including a recent miscarriage, each time it's heartbreaking. . . It might sound cold but 'everything happens for a reason', I think that saying has helped so many to accept miscarriage and carry on. . . If you are interested in putting a stop to pregnancy loss or miscarriages send us a dm or click on the link in our bio. Thanks . . . #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #parentingblogger #pregnancystruggles #pregnancysupport #loss #grief #babyloss #babyscanoflorcan #itsgoodtotalk

She just came into the light from her own dark.
Her dark undone.

Surely she can just fly now.
She's been through so much already. 
Not yet, my daughter.

She must choose the flight.
First, the undone, then the work.

Without frustration, she simply obeys. 
Trusting her truth.

Knowing her flight will be worth it.
Worth the undone and this work. 🦋🦋🦋 Where are you my brave friends, the undone or the work?

Will you choose to fly?
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She just came into the light from her own dark. Her dark undone. Surely she can just fly now. She's been through so much already. Not yet, my daughter. She must choose the flight. First, the undone, then the work. Without frustration, she simply obeys. Trusting her truth. Knowing her flight will be worth it. Worth the undone and this work. 🦋🦋🦋 Where are you my brave friends, the undone or the work? Will you choose to fly? . . . . #SelfCare #mentalhealth #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilityjourney #grief #loss #faith #Jesus #surrender #God #entrepreneur #author #speaker #recovery #happiness #happy #courage #authenticity #vulnerability #wholehearted #brave #resilience #poetry #butterflies #hobbies #gardening #monarchs #monarchbutterfly

Oxox It’s messy and painful and hard as hell. But worth it. Over and over again, facing the pain and doing the work is worth it. ❤️

Oxox It’s messy and painful and hard as hell. But worth it. Over and over again, facing the pain and doing the work is worth it. ❤️

We all have experiences that hurt, that are emotionally traumatic where we experience grief, loss and heartbreak.
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In life we can’t avoid these and we can’t protect and shield our kids from them either.
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But what we can do is respond to and move through these experiences in a way that allows us to heal, let go and still show up courageously and with an open heart in our lives.
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Doable, yes. Easy, no. Worth the effort, absolutely. .
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And courage is facing those difficult emotions and the hurt and allowing yourself to feel them as loud and in true colour as they are. .
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When you do this you allow your emotions to move through you, e-motion. They are meant to move through you, sometimes like a violent thunderstorm or a raging river, but never to be locked inside.
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Once they move through you, like blood from a wound, then you can heal. And only then can you let go. .
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And once you let go, you give yourself the opportunity to be whole again, to open your heart and share your scars valiantly for the world to see. Because those people are the real heroes, the ones that can show us that we’ll be ok on the other side of our heartbreak. And not just be ok, but learn to live again vibrantly with an open and courageous heart.

We all have experiences that hurt, that are emotionally traumatic where we experience grief, loss and heartbreak. . . In life we can’t avoid these and we can’t protect and shield our kids from them either. . . But what we can do is respond to and move through these experiences in a way that allows us to heal, let go and still show up courageously and with an open heart in our lives. . . Doable, yes. Easy, no. Worth the effort, absolutely. . . And courage is facing those difficult emotions and the hurt and allowing yourself to feel them as loud and in true colour as they are. . . When you do this you allow your emotions to move through you, e-motion. They are meant to move through you, sometimes like a violent thunderstorm or a raging river, but never to be locked inside. . . Once they move through you, like blood from a wound, then you can heal. And only then can you let go. . . And once you let go, you give yourself the opportunity to be whole again, to open your heart and share your scars valiantly for the world to see. Because those people are the real heroes, the ones that can show us that we’ll be ok on the other side of our heartbreak. And not just be ok, but learn to live again vibrantly with an open and courageous heart.

Not until we are all reunited 💔❤️
#sadmommy#bereavedmother#missingmybabyboy#mymissingpiece#angelmom#babyloss#grief

Not until we are all reunited 💔❤️ #sadmommy#bereavedmother#missingmybabyboy#mymissingpiece#angelmom#babyloss#grief

Broken heart? Shattered dreams?
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Broken heart? Shattered dreams? - - Have you ever felt like the rug has been pulled out from under you? Like you’ll never recover from a powerful loss in your life? Even if you haven’t lost a loved one to death, you can experience deep grieving when dreams are shattered or expectations aren’t met, hopes are dashed. - - Whenever we lose someone or something in life, a deep hole is created that we long to fill. How do you fill it when what you’ve lost is irreplaceable? - - Certified grief counselor Amy DiSanto will lead a two week workshop to help you explore the impact of grief in your life and provide tools for integrating losses and moving forward with hope. - 5:30-6:30 pm Wednesday August 21 & 28. Details at @medicinewheelwellness Need a one-on-one? Book free consult using bio link. * * #change #loss #grief #gethelp #grow #spiritualdirection #mentalhealth #spiritualhealth #heal #death #insights #insightsjh #jacksonhole #medicinewheelwellness #stjohnsjackson

Grief is hard. Period. That's the end of the sentence. However grief isn't just about death. Sometimes grief is the loss of possibilities and broken expectations. Whatever you've lost, there is a mourning that comes with it. 
I have mourned people, alive and dead. I have mourned situations, like normalicy. I have mourned myself, when processing trauma. 
I did an episode on grief when my dear cousin suddenly passed away. I miss him and think of him often. What do you miss? 
#beingunnormal #mentalillness #mentalhealth #grief #loss #death

Grief is hard. Period. That's the end of the sentence. However grief isn't just about death. Sometimes grief is the loss of possibilities and broken expectations. Whatever you've lost, there is a mourning that comes with it. I have mourned people, alive and dead. I have mourned situations, like normalicy. I have mourned myself, when processing trauma. I did an episode on grief when my dear cousin suddenly passed away. I miss him and think of him often. What do you miss? #beingunnormal #mentalillness #mentalhealth #grief #loss #death

What do you call an empowered, highly valued, respected, expert, peer supported, effective, collaborative, gracious, kind, and compassionate private concierge social worker?  A Banister Navigator, of course. ✨
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What do you call an empowered, highly valued, respected, expert, peer supported, effective, collaborative, gracious, kind, and compassionate private concierge social worker? A Banister Navigator, of course. ✨ . . . . #banisteradvisors #socialwork #socialworkers #msw #live #life #love #care #caregivers #conciergeservices #diagnosis #healthcare #medicine #reveredelders #family #community #livelifetothefullest #bereavement #grief #inspiration #livewell #oncology #coordinatedcare #grace #integrity #generosity #creativity #excellence #lifespan

Online tribute to “Jenson”⁣
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Online tribute to “Jenson”⁣ ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #petloss #bereavement #whenthetimecomes #grief #tribute #remembrance #celebrate #love ⁣ #loss #ceremony #celebration #gonebutnotforgotten #candle #inlovingmemory #alwaysinourhearts #itsnevergoodbye #seeyouagain #forever #gonetoosoon #memories #cats #catlover #kittens #kitty #meow #ilovemycat #lovecats #catlovers #cutecat #kitten

How do you choose to be grateful today?
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How do you choose to be grateful today? #SharingSolace #bgr8ful #WednesdayWisdom • • • #pregnancyandinfantloss #babyloss #bereavedparents #mamagrief #grief #griefsupport #grieving #loss #griefjourney #healingafterloss #GrievingMother #InfantLossSupport #BePositive #BabyLoss #BabyLossSupport #keepgoing #lifeafterloss

How Do You Honor The Falling Kings & Queens Who Have Paved The Way For You? Prayer Is My #1 Honoring Go To Tool For The Best Communication With My Ancestors..My Podcast #LAD Is My #2 Weapon Of Choice To Give Thanks And Praise For All That Was Done For Me! How Do You Salute Your Angels? Let Me Know In The Comments And Don’t Forget To Head On Over To @applepodcasts @soundcloud To Listen To #LAD Today! #ClickTheLink #LifeAfterDeath #LAD #TheToniRoseFoundation #PurposeFILLEDLife #Remember #Grief #Death #GriefCounseling #GriefCast #GriefRelief #LifeAfterDeath #TheToniRoseFoundation #TragedyToTriumph #Win #CommunityService #SocialWork #Family #Unity #love

How Do You Honor The Falling Kings & Queens Who Have Paved The Way For You? Prayer Is My #1 Honoring Go To Tool For The Best Communication With My Ancestors..My Podcast #LAD Is My #2 Weapon Of Choice To Give Thanks And Praise For All That Was Done For Me! How Do You Salute Your Angels? Let Me Know In The Comments And Don’t Forget To Head On Over To @applepodcasts @soundcloud To Listen To #LAD Today! #ClickTheLink #LifeAfterDeath #LAD #TheToniRoseFoundation #PurposeFILLEDLife #Remember #Grief #Death #GriefCounseling #GriefCast #GriefRelief #LifeAfterDeath #TheToniRoseFoundation #TragedyToTriumph #Win #CommunityService #SocialWork #Family #Unity #love

Yikes. Truth right here. My confidence is slowing building back up but man is it hard to believe and trust my worth after years of feeling less than. #widow #lossofaspouse #loss #confidence #grief #narcissist #alcoholic #addiction #recovery #love #movingon

Yikes. Truth right here. My confidence is slowing building back up but man is it hard to believe and trust my worth after years of feeling less than. #widow #lossofaspouse #loss #confidence #grief #narcissist #alcoholic #addiction #recovery #love #movingon

Sketches and layers I made a while ago for a 3 panel comic strip for The New York Times Rites of Passage column. For the text “There Are No Five Stages of Grief” written by Andy Kopsa. Thanks AD Tracy Ma and @nytimes! #NewYorkTimes #editorial #illustration #grief #wip #sketch #ink

Sketches and layers I made a while ago for a 3 panel comic strip for The New York Times Rites of Passage column. For the text “There Are No Five Stages of Grief” written by Andy Kopsa. Thanks AD Tracy Ma and @nytimes! #NewYorkTimes #editorial #illustration #grief #wip #sketch #ink

“...there are many examples of people living under severe mental strain who have been helped by a Teddy Bear. It would seem that adults willingly turn to inanimate objects when the human element has let them down. Again and again there is concrete proof that a state of mind can be improved by the companionship of a Teddy; there is a steadying quality about a Teddy Bear which must influence the owner.”~Peter Bull, ‘The Teddy Bear Book’  I’ve found this to be true. #teddybearsofinstagram #plushiesofinstagram #grief #goingwithwhatworks #gentle #teddyhugs #nofilter #peterbull #theteddybearbook #quotes #vermontteddybear

“...there are many examples of people living under severe mental strain who have been helped by a Teddy Bear. It would seem that adults willingly turn to inanimate objects when the human element has let them down. Again and again there is concrete proof that a state of mind can be improved by the companionship of a Teddy; there is a steadying quality about a Teddy Bear which must influence the owner.”~Peter Bull, ‘The Teddy Bear Book’ I’ve found this to be true. #teddybearsofinstagram #plushiesofinstagram #grief #goingwithwhatworks #gentle #teddyhugs #nofilter #peterbull #theteddybearbook #quotes #vermontteddybear

Yess...! Yes..! Yes...! 👊🏼
So true.... Well said. Just had to share/repost. This explains it all so well.

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This is why “How are you?” can feel like the most daunting question in the midst of #grief. We all contain multitudes in every single moment in time. Some of those emotions we’re proud of, some we’re ashamed of, some we enjoy feeling, others we feel guilt feeling because nothing is straight forward or as simple or capable of a one-word answer. There will never be a day in this post-death apocalypse that I am 100% “good”. But I may be 50% good amongst so many other emotions and that is okay. I repeat, THAT IS OKAY. #adayinthelifewithgrief • 📸 by @bymariandrew

Yess...! Yes..! Yes...! 👊🏼 So true.... Well said. Just had to share/repost. This explains it all so well. #Repost @thatgoodgrief • • • • • • This is why “How are you?” can feel like the most daunting question in the midst of #grief. We all contain multitudes in every single moment in time. Some of those emotions we’re proud of, some we’re ashamed of, some we enjoy feeling, others we feel guilt feeling because nothing is straight forward or as simple or capable of a one-word answer. There will never be a day in this post-death apocalypse that I am 100% “good”. But I may be 50% good amongst so many other emotions and that is okay. I repeat, THAT IS OKAY. #adayinthelifewithgrief • 📸 by @bymariandrew

So many choose to shutdown.  This only builds a bigger wall.
Accepting new clients at Christian Counseling Ohio Valley LLC.
“People begin to heal the moment they are heard.”
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So many choose to shutdown. This only builds a bigger wall. Accepting new clients at Christian Counseling Ohio Valley LLC. “People begin to heal the moment they are heard.” christiancounselingov.com. [email protected] 740-221-3400 Confidential, non-judge mental sessions available. #counseling #marriagecounseling #talk #forgiveness #help #anger #stress #grief

I found out that I was pregnant with you in Ireland. When you were just the size of a blueberry you joined me at 3,000 feet above sea level on a small island off the coast of West Africa. When your heart took its first beat, you were 5,700 kms away from where we now call home. ⁣
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You endured the longest travel days. Your sister squished you when she just needed a nap in the carrier while touring the Colosseum. I kept you a secret from everyone. I didn’t tell your dad about you until we were 9 weeks pregnant and tossing coins in the Trevi Fountain. You are the best wish come true. ⁣
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During our second trimester together I lost my father and was overcome with extreme sadness. And in the midst of an incredible loss, you were growing stronger. When I felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest, yours kept beating for me. ⁣
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When you were just about the size of a Pineapple you took your first dip in the ocean in Hawaii. You hiked, swam at the base of waterfalls and soaked up the warm sun. With your help I began to heal a little. ⁣
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At the beginning of our third trimester you were stranded in the Denver airport during a bomb cyclone. We slept together on the airport floor keeping watch over your older siblings. Siblings that now watch over you. ⁣
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I found out that I was pregnant with you in Ireland. When you were just the size of a blueberry you joined me at 3,000 feet above sea level on a small island off the coast of West Africa. When your heart took its first beat, you were 5,700 kms away from where we now call home. ⁣ ⁣ You endured the longest travel days. Your sister squished you when she just needed a nap in the carrier while touring the Colosseum. I kept you a secret from everyone. I didn’t tell your dad about you until we were 9 weeks pregnant and tossing coins in the Trevi Fountain. You are the best wish come true. ⁣ ⁣ During our second trimester together I lost my father and was overcome with extreme sadness. And in the midst of an incredible loss, you were growing stronger. When I felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest, yours kept beating for me. ⁣ ⁣ When you were just about the size of a Pineapple you took your first dip in the ocean in Hawaii. You hiked, swam at the base of waterfalls and soaked up the warm sun. With your help I began to heal a little. ⁣ ⁣ At the beginning of our third trimester you were stranded in the Denver airport during a bomb cyclone. We slept together on the airport floor keeping watch over your older siblings. Siblings that now watch over you. ⁣ ⁣ I worried. I worried so much. I worried about the food I ate in other countries. I worried about the plane rides. I worried⁣ about the air quality so high above sea level. I worried. ⁣ ⁣ I worried about how much I cried when your grandfather was sick. I worried about how much I cried for the days and months after he passed away. I worried about how much I worried. ⁣ ⁣ I wanted you here. I felt you would be safer on the outside. ⁣ ⁣ And here you are. The happiest baby. The easiest smile. The most easy going little being. You’ve already been through so much, and you’ll never know the impact you’ve made in such a short time. ⁣ ⁣ Sweet Sawyer, you are loved more than you will ever know. You have joined me on some pretty incredible adventures already, and together we will go on so many more. 🧡⁣ ⁣ @theyesfamily

Giving back is the only way i can heal... 💪❤#empathyquotes #grief #siblingloss #heavyheart

Giving back is the only way i can heal... 💪❤#empathyquotes #grief #siblingloss #heavyheart

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